Come rain & shine, catastrophe or bliss, family stick together. Such a unique unit, how they bind and wrapped together.

And why am I talking about family?

Many of you might not know this, my family functions very weirdly. We're the losers in saying "I Love You" or "I'm Sorry" (ok shai, maybe your family can share the same trophy). But still, we stick together. We can fight like today's the end of the world and the next day, we simply catcall each other 'bodoh' and laughed about it. No matter how big the arguments & misunderstandings, we attach together.

For example, I was furious my dad didn't take the courtesy to buy me an advance ticket to KL today and landed me a tix at 10.30 am. Imagine, I arrived last Friday at 10 pm and I need to wake early on Saturday for that S*PA test and God knows that will take all day. Which left me few quality times at home. Upon hearing my reply of, "Kak Yong xnak balik pagi2 la Ayah. Penat tau", the dead silence tone on my handphone is clearly the sign of my father being pissed off at me.

The good thing is, I didn't sulk or being sarcastic as I always be (see, I told that certain person, I've grown up) and my Father talked to me back first thing in the morning. And we can simply talk like normal father-daughter as if nothing happened (which of course I said my sorry, xmo jd anak derhaka). See, that's a family.

You don't really want to know how it feels. So shallow, empty. Empty and just empty.

Funny when I can usually give people chances. Believe they can change. Always. But people can't trust me back. Always thinking i'm sneaking behind their backs. That I have other things or people in my mind except for them. That I care others but not them.

It's sad & empty. I don't want to move on. I still want to cling on the people who can't give me chances. Stupid am I?

So, maybe this is a goodbye to blogdrive then? Perhaps. Maybe. Definitely??

Hussein: Apa perempuan nk sebenarnya? Dulu bukan main mesra, bukan main nak. Sekarang ni?

Zoela: Perempuan ni, dia nk sentiasa dihargai.

Hussein: Aku x hargai dia ke? Kita keluar makan sama2, jumpa hari.

Zoela: Oke, apa yg boss slalu bual dgn dia?

Hussein: Ala, kita borak2 mcm couple lain gak. Pasal bola, pasal bengkel.

Zoela: Birthday dia boss bg apa? Annivesaries? Valentine? Hadiah2 lain?

Hussein: Birthday aku bwk pegi makan je. Anniversaries, 1st year x bg apa pun. 2nd year, aku bwk pegi arcade. 3rd year.. tahun ni la.. belum bg apa2. Valentine tu bukan budaya kita. Hadiah, aku bg benda pasir tu. Pusing2 tu.

Zoela: Bg tu je? Boss kata apa kt dia?

Hussein: Aku ckp ada budak minta derma, bg aku free benda tu. Dr aku buang, baik aku bg dia.... [pause] Aku rasa aku paham apa ko ckpkan tu tadi

Zoela: Perempuan ni senang je. They want to feel appreciated constantly

Taken from Sindarela [11.03.08]

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