What happened to this blogdrive? Filthy and unorganized, indeed. There must be a reason I'm writing back. Hear ye Hear Ye, you out there. Listen to what I need to say.
First, fret not. I'm not taking my own life. That'll be too stupid. What I'm doing now, is certainly a suicidal path in damaging my own heart, perhaps, if wrong actions/words are taken. I'm fully aware of that. I've received tons of wisdom, reminders, advices and words about this. Yet, yet, I'm still headstrong to brave it. I don't know why. Maybe because I'm simply stupid.
But the truth is, I'm partially to blame. I'm possessive and utterly selfish. I realize that, JUST after 5 years. Taken things sometimes for granted. Wanted things to go MY way and an absolute freaking perfectionist. I'm making a vow now. I'm turning a new leaf. I don't want to be that person. I want to be happy being a better human. Not because of him. Because I wanted to.
Yes, kawan kamu ini perlu dibantu kadang-kadang sbb living in half-denial world tp dia degil xmo dengar. Just try to catch her if she fall. And please don't say "I've said so"
Love is such a weird and magic thing. How simple and little sense of love can make a change to your day or life.
In short, it was worth it. :-)
Yes, I have to literally compete with the 'other'. But I have my own 'sponsors' on this. It's weird, the thing we have. But I'm gonna do my best to treasure, nurture, support and keep it this time.
Aishiteru, Domyouji. XOXO
First, fret not. I'm not taking my own life. That'll be too stupid. What I'm doing now, is certainly a suicidal path in damaging my own heart, perhaps, if wrong actions/words are taken. I'm fully aware of that. I've received tons of wisdom, reminders, advices and words about this. Yet, yet, I'm still headstrong to brave it. I don't know why. Maybe because I'm simply stupid.
But the truth is, I'm partially to blame. I'm possessive and utterly selfish. I realize that, JUST after 5 years. Taken things sometimes for granted. Wanted things to go MY way and an absolute freaking perfectionist. I'm making a vow now. I'm turning a new leaf. I don't want to be that person. I want to be happy being a better human. Not because of him. Because I wanted to.
Yes, kawan kamu ini perlu dibantu kadang-kadang sbb living in half-denial world tp dia degil xmo dengar. Just try to catch her if she fall. And please don't say "I've said so"
Love is such a weird and magic thing. How simple and little sense of love can make a change to your day or life.
In short, it was worth it. :-)
Yes, I have to literally compete with the 'other'. But I have my own 'sponsors' on this. It's weird, the thing we have. But I'm gonna do my best to treasure, nurture, support and keep it this time.
Aishiteru, Domyouji. XOXO
